i have run my hands through my hair so many times today its greasy on just one side, i have given myself anxieties manicure, and wanted to cry three times today. I finished a budget meeting and had to use my puffer in a desperate hope id regain my ability to breathe normally. 

I have 300 emails to sort, and a fresh 37 that need answers from me that i don’t think i can provide. all my events have become one in my head, and everything is urgent in reality, but nothing is urgent unless its for the event this saturday. 

I keep trying to push around plans, and push them back, and pull that forward. I leave in a week and i have not put a single thought into that trip, i follow every sentence i hear with “yeah, i’ll do that today” and i won’t, i physically can’t. 

i have 1000 things jotted down on every surface, and between the words in my ears and bigger projects, i have no time to get to them. everything is screaming at me. i don’t want to look in any direction cos every surface has a direction i must follow. 

Between coffee cup and little talks about how this job will ruin me, i have post its with friendly reminders and messages with well wishes that only become overwhelming too.






One day I will own a royal black corset *-*

OMG I WANT SO BAD mnxiping

Holy shit.
The middle 3 though.

new mission. need.

The Searchers - When You Walk In The Room
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When You Walk in the Room | The Searchers (Jackie DeShannon cover) | 1964

I close my eyes for a second and pretend it’s me you want
Meanwhile I try to act so nonchalant

I know things in my life to be true before they happen.

theloveablemess this is the one that made me cry last time!!!

Like clock work.


Aw, Beyoncé gave Nicki Minaj a gift yesterday at the VMAs. Queens.

Loona - Vamos a la Playa
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Vamos a la Playa - Loona

so. catchy. 

There is no excuse in the world good to enough to get out of dancing to this song.


Beyonce at VMA2014.


Beyonce at VMA2014.